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a little aquariaffiti never hurt anybody

2006-09-07T22:24:00.000-07:00

homesick

snowfall, camerafall

2006-03-07T21:00:00.000-08:00

snowdays

2006-03-07T20:51:00.000-08:00

bye rory

2005-12-01T21:13:00.000-08:00

i'll miss you :(

ps. i think someone stole that sweater from me.

rodin workout regimen

2005-11-28T19:19:00.000-08:00

sundays :(

2005-11-13T00:00:00.000-08:00

european jumps

2005-10-28T20:26:00.000-07:00

dedicated to kbach!

cheers to NY!

2005-10-23T21:30:00.000-07:00

underwater cave fishing

2005-10-12T21:45:00.000-07:00

these guys live at l'aquàriam barcelona

two children in london got me to trade in fantasy football for neopets. you can take your virtual pets to underwater cave fishing. i've taken my pets there so often that i dreamt about it several nights ago. the cave smelled like l'aquàriam barcelona. i miss both places. and i miss you all too. i'll tell you about my funny dreams about you another time.

hello?

2005-05-31T22:27:00.000-07:00

is this thing on?

birds in inappropriate places

2005-04-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

"there was an old bird who lived in a shoe(box)" photo: kbach

hapa dolphins

2005-04-15T13:08:00.000-07:00

yes hapas are adorable and attractive, but full dolphins are just as adorable and attractive. well one special hapa dolphin, or a wholphin (part false killer whale and part dolphin) just had a baby!

eco-porn, a career change

2005-04-13T14:59:00.000-07:00

leona johansson and tommy hol ellingsen have a strong love for the earth. they show it by having a strong love for each other, video taping it, putting it on the internet, and raising money. in the middle of a Norwegian clear-cut forest, they discuss the dammage that deforestation can cause the environment. then they do it, right there, on the tree stump. unfortunately, the "reputable" environmental organizations refuse to accept the $90,000 or so that leona and tommy have raised. if this environmental law thing doesn't work out for me, it's nice to know that there are other options out there.

yet another power struggle manifested into the form of fruit:

2005-04-10T18:09:00.000-07:00

[i run into my dad in the driveway as he pulls up from grocery shopping and i'm about to head to berkeley.]

dad: hi, are you leaving? takes these four bananas with you.

me: thanks dad, i'll only need two tho.

dad: no, take four, eat them.

me: no, i won't eat them all in a day.

dad: it's ok, you need a spare banana, keep them in your car. (he throws two bananas into his back seat)

me: ew, no i don't want to keep them in the car, they'll get smashed.

dad: well eat them before they get smashed then.

me: no, i don't want four, i don't understand why you won't just let me take two. I just want two bananas, that's the perfect amount for me. I can come back and get more bananas but i only want two now. just two, i don't need four, how come you won't let me just take two. i just don't understand why you always make me take so much food with me that it ends up going bad anyways and two bananas are fine i mean i just don't underst..

dad: OK FINE! GIVE ME BACK THE BANANAS THEN! YOU DON'T DESERVE THEM. YOU'RE A SPOILED UNGRATEFUL AMERICANIZED BRAT. GIVE THEM BACK TO ME, I DON'T WANT YOU TO HAVE ANY BANANAS! NOT ANY! (translated from chinese)

((for a split second i fantasized unpeeling the bananas and smearing them across the pavement and cars saying "yeah, maybe i don't deserve your bananas!"))

me: ok .... (hand him back one banana and run into the car and speed off before he can take all the bananas away from me)

influential conversations:

2005-04-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

Quad*****: i just watched one of the most fucke dup movies ever
Auto response from Lee*****: it's rainin
Quad*****: closer
Quad*****: and i think you'd like it for some reason
Quad***** is idle at 1:05:48 AM.

later that day:

Nectar in *****: that's a good idea. when things fuck with your mind, say fuck my mind! i'm gonna concentrate on my kickass body
Lee*****: LOL

2005-03-30T14:31:00.000-08:00

like a camel in the desert straining to lick the sky.

2005-03-20T23:55:00.000-08:00

tri-celebrate.

2005-03-15T23:52:00.000-08:00

andinh day.

2005-03-11T09:00:00.000-08:00

"it's common to believe that you are the one shining exception,
unfortunately it's uncommon to actually be one."

2005-02-28T09:38:00.000-08:00

olivia day.

2005-02-15T15:15:00.000-08:00

on sunday i was in san jose with my mom for new year festivities. we stopped by lion market in milpitas to pick up some new year supplies. the entire lion market storefront was in a haze of fire cracker smoke as 7 lions and 1 dragon were dancing about to the clangs of the cymbals and drums. i stopped to watch, but my mom hurridly pushed me inside.

we picked out the items we needed and my mom went to the other side of the store to grab some fruit. i followed but paused when i heard more fire crackers go off. i looked towards the front of the store and was hypnotized by the sequened asses of the lions swaying in their huddle. with the last big bang, all the lions spun around and charged into the store aisles. i suddenly realized one of them was heading my way! i kind of panicked when i saw the bobble eyes of the lion staring straight at me. i tried to play it cool by looking away, picking up a packet of beans or something, and tapping my foot to the drum beats. but when i looked up, he was next to me. there was only us and rows of beans and noodles. he shook his head from side to side at me, and tried to nuzzle my hand. i freaked out and ran to look for my mom.

i found her bagging apples and i told her what had happened. she laughed at me and said "they're just hungry."
"i wish i had some lettuce for him or something."
"oh no, these lions don't want lettuce, they're hungry for dollar bills."
"oh."

2005-02-10T15:10:00.000-08:00

new year's pep talk to myself:

you're an idiot! get ur f* act together!!! this year, it's going to be different. today was so much much better than yesterday. wasn't it? oh and wake up earlier.

2005-02-04T13:06:00.000-08:00

these prayers that i have buried in my chest will have to wait until tomorrow.

2005-02-03T11:12:00.000-08:00

i dreamt that i was late for work, a usual dream and a "usual" occurance.

i looked down at my cell phone to check the time. 2 missed calls? "denise look! your boss called you twice, ur so late!" said my cell phone in a polyphonic alvin chimpmunk voice.

"oh no see, those missed calls were from a long time ago. but look who's call u did just miss. it's from your beesssssttttfriend! aren't you sad you missed it? why don't you just stay in bed and call back? yes!" sing songed barry manilow from somewhere inside of my cell phone.

i flipped open the phone. yep 3 missed calls, two from my boss and one from my bestest friend. I guess i'll call my friend back.

"you are going to be in so much trouble!" alvin squeaked.

"just lay back down and i'll dial for you." soothed barry.

i stared at the cellphone and started to panic, i have to go to work!!! ooh but i really want to call my friend too. but work!!

I was about to ask alvin cellphone a question when i woke up to my actual cell phone alarm going off. i thought about alvin and barry for maybe a split second before turning off the alarm. i went back to sleep and dreamt that i was legolas the elf admisitering the SATs to the british royal boys, william and harry, and tony blair's son too.

2005-01-26T23:47:00.000-08:00

offering the very dreams off of my back
hoping the 12 pt. font can use them
asking for what i want
being told what i get
ahhh applications.

thank you so much to everyone for absolutely everything.
thank u A.

2004-11-03T10:55:00.000-08:00

so bush won, and we all lost.

2004-10-28T15:54:00.000-07:00

the names have been changed but the problems are real:

johnny moonshine: hey so i have this gut feeling.
johnny applesauce: well, is it a good feeling or a bad feeling?
johnny moonshine: well, it's telling me to watch out, be on my toes, things aren't what they seem to be.
johnny applesauce: and?
johnny moonshine: i'm not sure if i should listen to my gut or not. last time i didn't, and i had to pay for it.
johnny applesause: or you could just be paranoid.
johnny moonshine: yeah, that too.
johnny applesauce: tough call. better leave it to hindsight.
johnny moonshine: yeah.

2004-10-27T17:26:00.000-07:00

at work i have a favorite bathroom stall. it's cozy, it's clean and for some reason no one liked it. maybe because it flushed funny, but i knew how to jiggle it. when i left the office for 4 months to do field work, the things i missed most was the hot water cooler and my stall. when i came back, the stall was right there, waiting for me...except something was different. i could tell that someone else was using the stall, the toilet paper was just going way too fast for it to be just me. while i was away, someone must have discovered my secret.

i was crushed! i felt exposed. what used to be a highlight of my work day, soon became a chore. but today, i found a new favorite bathroom stall! the door is broken, but i know how to make it work for me. and it is all mine!

2004-10-19T16:17:00.000-07:00

i have stopped holding my breath when going through tunnels
and i have stopped looking for shooting stars
and i don't pick dandelions anymore
and i started saving my pennies instead of throwing them into fountains

i've been so foolish

at first couldn't find them
but actually, they were scattered everywhere
under the couch cushions alone
i found bits of popcorn, a bunch of change and a handful of wishes

i took a bag and filled it with every wish i had left behind
october 21st is too long to wait to catch the next meteor shower
so i went where the stars are always moving

i rented a boat and paddled out to the reef
i emptied the bag
every wish came tumbling out except for one
i watched as they sluggishly sank
some of them hitched rides on the backs of starfish
and i knew they were on their way to coming true

the one wish, i put him in my back pocket
i figured some wishes are meant to be kept instead of wished

2004-10-14T01:13:00.000-07:00

i came in second again.

i'll take it, but not for long.

2004-10-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

experiment:

and i felt i might never look up at the sun without the ocean between us.
and i felt i might never look at the sun without the ocean between us.
and i felt i might never look without the ocean between us.
and i felt i might never look between us.
and i felt i might never between us.
and i felt i between us.
and i between us.
and i us.
and us.
us.

(line from a previous post)

2004-10-11T13:47:00.000-07:00

is my dreamlife trying to tell me something?

in the past week or so, i've had vivid dreams about:
-being a sniper
-rescuing a white kangaroo
-living in a prison camp
-getting jacked and then getting even
-getting jacked (woke up before i could get even)
-making snow angels in a desert
-met people that i knew would later jack me
-getting presents in the mail

2004-10-08T15:14:00.000-07:00

nothing but other people's words in my head today.

A better son/daughter

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you love things just because
Like the sick and dying

And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them

-Rilo Kiley

2004-10-07T10:20:00.000-07:00

once there was a boy. a quiet boy who was always lost in his imagination. his parents were quiet too, and weary. they were always lost in work. busy making a living, but not living at all. soon that boy became a man. he raised himself with some help from his friends, ghosts and fairy godmothers. and he raised himself to be a quiet man. busy making a living, but hardly living at all. and there had been something missing. a quiet mountain.

no one is really sure who called out to whom. a mountain in deep sleep, might have heard a silent prayer and began to stir. or a man, who felt he was no one in particular, might have been the only one who understood the low rumbling sobs from a groggy mountain. either way, the day the mountain began to wake, this man packed a bag. he climbed for days until finally he reached the top. and there he bid farewell to his friends, ghosts and fairy godmothers and jumped. at that moment, he and his mountain made the loudest noise anyone had ever heard. and they were happy.

http://www.fs.fed.us/gpnf/volcanocams/msh/

2004-09-23T13:04:00.000-07:00

whether i wanted to admit it or not, i have been in internal mourning. i haven't been able to deal with much of anything in the last three months. so, after nearly hitting new lows for myself several times, i finally feel ready to move on and really shake it off so that i can shake it up.

after rereading my "declaration of shakedependence," i can't help but notice how vague, melodramtic, and lame it sounds. and while it is very annoying, that's exactly how i have been feeling.

i'm feeling vague, melodramtic, and lame. this post is annoying. you have been reading denise. thank you, please come again.

2004-09-18T15:19:00.000-07:00

i repeat the same toxic cycles in my life and for what? so i can win against them? maybe it's more about not letting them win. sometimes it is worth it. sometimes it is not.

2004-09-17T12:27:00.000-07:00

i miss diane already. sara and i had too much fun being domestic to our hearts delight. an's army of diane cupcakes were delicious. and brian and sara made it possible to groove to the oldies.

ps quilting is the new knitting.

2004-09-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

i'm not ready. i'm unprepared and unwilling to go on. so i'm just going to sit here. just for a little bit. ok. doke.

2004-09-14T00:27:00.000-07:00

bling:

i saw an escalade today. it had an extra wheel attached to the back of the car. and even that extra wheel had a spinner on it.

the cell phone case that diane got me from china has a cute and soft puppy on it. his tiny collar is encrusted with diamonds and even has a gold pendant on it.

2004-09-08T22:07:00.000-07:00

i have writer'sblog. sorry steebu and ben.

2004-08-20T15:13:00.000-07:00

born too late or grew up too fast. missing two brothers and a sister, they're living somewhere else in the universe. pretends to be a robust boy in the day and pretends to be a mysterious girl at night. enjoys long walks on the beach and punching people in the face.

2004-08-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

i'm jealous of my own suitcases. one piece has been to vietnam twice without me and another is on its way to china right now. i gotta believe that it will be my turn soon. maybe when i finally do get a chance my suitcases will introduce me to their friends and tell me which places are good to eat at. i especially need to see vietnam and spend more time with china. they nag at me to come home like a mother and father should.

2004-08-17T21:43:00.000-07:00

i can scarcely believe that you're back. even as i was gathering up all my courage to look you in the eyes for the first time again. you put your fingers through my hair but they got caught in a tangle of mine. the awkward moments are the sweetest.
i know a part of you is still there.
thank you for leaving a part of you here with me. i'd hear him skating around town or strumming on the guitar. sometimes he'd whisper about how you were safe in the arms of our motherland. he even took me there to visit you when the moon was high noon on my side, and the sun was already shining on yours.
when you got back, i stitched him onto the inside of your green zip-up. has he told you how much i miss you?

2004-08-16T23:36:00.000-07:00

the processor in my head is slow, like 266 mhz or something.

before i could get over the shock of an exciting reunion and amazingly gorgeous lazy long weekend in so cal, i got back to berkeley and rolled over into a week of attempts to recreate it with two lovely ladies and jose. and right in the middle of our giggles and toe taps comes another gang of fun who drove up from so cal to welcome the new weekend. it also brought along a wonderful surprise that i could hold hands with.

i'm heartsick.

someone told me a few days ago that i should stop being naive and idealistic. i just might take her advice. this pensive summer isn't over yet.

this job allows me to stew in my own mind juices. i broke my heart today for the 5th time since this project started. i either need to stop stewing or stop counting.

happy belated birthday jimmy.

rilo kiley makes me so sad that i can't figure out what to do other than smile.

2004-08-01T02:13:00.000-07:00

i woke up this morning and threw open the window. at that moment, 100 sad songs flew into the room. they wrenched me from the bedpost and thew me down hard upon the sky. all i could do was lay there while they whirled around me. for a long time i just stared up at the ocean, trying hard not to listen to what they had to sing. i recognized a few sea creatures and realized i was staring up at the gulf of mexico. suddenly, all i wanted to do was take a swim there again. when the songs felt me get up to leave, they grew angry and released their sadness onto me. i began to cry and my tears rained down upon the sea. the songs' anger and my tears caused a violent storm. it was so breathtaking that the songs' continuous hold was broken, just for an instant, and i fell from the sky and fell for days. it felt good to feel gravity again. he pulled me close, like he meant it. and soon i plunged deep into the sea. i think my time with the songs had turned my heart into stone because i sank and i felt i might never look up at the sun without the ocean between us.

2004-07-31T17:38:00.000-07:00

JtFuNNiE (5:36:06 PM): wanna go see harold and kumar crunk?
JtFuNNiE (5:36:19 PM): i'm listening to the democratic convention speeches online

2004-07-31T01:45:00.000-07:00

my eyes sting as if my hair was on fire. there is no comfort when they are closed and certainly not while they are opened.

2004-07-29T00:32:00.000-07:00

i should be in bed right now since i need to be awake in a just a few hours. but i wanted to jot this down before i forgot.

the other day i finally had the opportunity to pick up my diploma from sproul. i got to stroll through the face-lifted plaza, and it took a second to register that it was newly completed. anyhow, i picked up this official piece of paper validating my 4 years of education and then walked down telegraph to my car. so as i was walking, the usual gutterpunks and homeless people hassled and heckled. and that was normal, but it seemed odd. this is corny, but it kinda felt like that walk down telegraph was my real "walk" across the stage of the "real" world or something. and with all the powers of a college degree in my hand, i failed to have a quarter on me to spare.

2004-07-24T11:16:00.000-07:00

i've become something of a modern nomad.

there are little pieces of me scattered everywhere that kinda get tossed around in the wind. even my job requres me to set up camp in different places for a month or two at a time. it's difficult to function under constant adaptation and i can feel myself slipping sometimes. time with myself seems to be at the mercy of other's schedules and needs.

i have no central location that i can always return to and let go. no place to call my own, not even a closet. the closest place i have to a home base is my car rory, and she's on wheels. but really, everything i need in order to live is kept in the trunk. everything but a few important people, who i probably wouldn't want to keep locked up in my trunk anyhow.

so home turns into the people i care about, and wherever they are. so i guess it doesn't really matter if i don't have a toothbrush there. i got one in my backpack.

2004-07-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

i find that when life gets hectic, and time is a crunch, i get really stressed out, but also satisfied in a strange way.

what has pinned me against the wall of time is mostly work. those 10hr. days working in the trench is nerve racking, dirtifying, and sweat-producing. it makes simple tasks such as getting ready to meet up with friends or going to rehersals or something into a strategic process becauase it entails transforming myself from a dirt scrub with hardhat hair and reverse racoon face tan back into a girl who doesn't stank. and i've only got 15 min or less.

and it's kind of romantic like the britney spears video "u drive me crazy" where she's working as a waitress by day, then she changes into her party time outfit and does that chair-leaning-bosom thing. or like clark kent who rips off his shirt to reveal his superself. and so i'm thinking i must enjoy this process so much because it sheds off the mundane, making ends meet, dirt scrub aspect of me to show my other self, a girl that's on a mission to beat traffic and smell pleasant.

so when it is all said and done, who cares if i didn't perform well that night, at least i get there ontime (for the most part) and i'm so fresh and so clean clean.

2004-07-19T23:16:00.000-07:00

gosh, crazy wonderful friends, a sleepy mango and an angry eggplant, late night mcdonald's snacks, bitch sessions, and mr. Quentin Thong Tran make oppression almost fun!

2004-07-13T21:46:00.000-07:00

no strength to write, barely enough to breathe.

2004-07-10T02:54:00.000-07:00

the politics of things that should have nothing to do with politics

it's unfortunate when your name, reputation, and who you're friends with outwiegh your abilities, your potential, enthusiasm and attitude. makes missed opportunities, second guessing, and regrets a common occurance.

the politics of politics

ex: fahrenheit 9/11

2004-07-08T00:55:00.000-07:00

happy birthday sawa and booce!!!!! a pair of wonderfuls.

2004-07-08T00:30:00.000-07:00

i'm so angry i wish i could turn into a termite and bite through a table. YOUR table, take that asshole!

2004-06-30T23:14:00.000-07:00

blah blog blog

pre me um xanga

how could you do this to me??
i thought you were my friendster.

OG(mail)'s in the heeeouse

ebought ebay

[internet cocktail drugs]

2004-06-30T01:09:00.000-07:00

today i saw a dog that looked excatly like sandy!! except 20 times bigger :) i miss sandy very much. especially the way she wagged her tail, more like the way she wagged her booty.

2004-06-26T00:25:00.000-07:00

a while ago, one of my coworkers quit to go to med school. he came back to visit and described some of the grueling coursework and time he has to put into it. he also told us that his girlfriend and his classmate's others found themselves with a lot of free time when the med students were with cadavers and books. so his girlfriend formed the "widow's" club. they got together to do stuff and talk about how they miss their others very much.

hey diane, wanna get together and do stuff and stuff? :)

2004-06-25T00:12:00.000-07:00

a day where everything just goes wrong from the start. a murphy's day. haven't had one of these in a long while. everything from work to health to rory breaking down to family to work. thank goodness for a mama, mr. eric, an old friend, a long long distance phone call, and a daddy too.

2004-06-24T22:45:00.000-07:00

trickle down hate.

so bush and this war cut epa's budget. meaning all of my projects get put on hold. meaning i get reassigned to at least 3 months of field work under 2 supervisors that make my life almost unbearable.

i hate bush etc.

2004-06-20T23:19:00.000-07:00

i still feel like michelle kwan at nagano in 1998 olympics, like a hanging chad at florida in 2000 elections. should i go for the gold? i've got a few days to decide.

2004-06-18T00:07:00.000-07:00

umm.. so i just tried to get into the house using my keyless entry remote for my car.....yeah i just got confused for a second...

2004-06-09T22:28:00.000-07:00

today i ran into 2 reasons i wish i had a camera or could sketch like booce. something to capture these moments of pure chic and pure disaster. what i am attempting to describe does not do justice.

chic:
two young gals just chillin at strada cafe, just minding their own bidness. one was working intently at her pink barbie laptop while the other brought over some drinks for the two. her hands could barely wrap around the cups and matching java jackets. they couldn't have been older than 6 or 7 but they carried themselves with such poise. i snuck to the side and waited to see they were there all by themselves or waiting for the rest of their malibu stacey study group to show.

disaster:
330cl caterpillar excavator gentlely digging a 14 ft deep trench. on the 7th try, at 30 ft of the 7,180 ft to go, water comes rushing into the hole. no problem, pump the water out. can't pump fast enough. at 50 ft of the 7,150 ft to go...a collapse. in an instant, the trench walls cave in. "run for the high ground!" dirt splatters foul water and musty debris on all of us. that costed $50,000.

2004-06-05T22:46:00.000-07:00

ladies and gentleman, the sprint!

2004-06-03T19:13:00.000-07:00

rabid mosquitoes better step off.

2004-05-28T10:18:00.000-07:00

big changes seems to be headed in everyone's direction. i'm not sure if it's just me, i know things constantly change, but this year especially seems to be the year of the change.

congrats to andinh and the other wonderful graduates. congrats to folks landing jobs, quitting their jobs, lateral job moves, and promotions. congrats to eric, getting comfortable in grad school and those headed that way or transfering. congrats to olivia getting certified. congrats to folks traveling the world. congrats to coworkers getting married and/or having babies.

i hope i haven't missed the boat. oh wait, my big change is that i found out that i have horribly debilitating allergies when i work in the field. great.

as i wrote this, someone in toronto, canada just gave birth to an 8 lbs. beautiful baby girl. congrats!!

2004-05-25T08:00:00.000-07:00

"i've got a fever...and the only cure...is more cowbell"

right about now, this is how i'm feeling i guess. it's been a tumultuous week, with a lot of guilt-laden good times and gunmetal tears. i want to talk about it but, more cowbell please.

2004-05-19T23:10:00.000-07:00

ouch!

my eardrum, my eyeballs, my nose, my left hand, my right knee, my boobs, my esophagus...all in pain!

2004-05-18T21:20:00.000-07:00

there are some things people can only tell their blogs.

2004-05-16T23:41:00.000-07:00

odd scenes in these past few days:

a clown driving a minivan filled with kids, racing down university ave, and screaming at the kids to quiet down.

a man dressed in renaissance garb walking his pitbull down the street, red-feathered cap swaying with his saunter.

the owner of mario's picking up his order from the taco truck and getting giddy like a schoolboy.

2004-05-05T15:13:00.000-07:00

this past weekend i missed my first rice show in over 4 years. what has been going on with me??

2004-05-04T15:44:00.000-07:00

souveniers from Eureka:

-flip cup
-round stones, red stones
-3 mosquito bites
-3 plants
-box of hotel kleenex
-swimmers in the buff at eel river
-sunburnt neck
-"shake it off, just shake it off" amanda.
-"i don't like small cars or big women,
but somehow i always find myself in 'em" kid rock
-a day in the life of a soccer mom
-tansparent tape trick
-mtv nightmares

2004-04-28T18:47:00.000-07:00

last week i saw a poor dog work so hard (to catch the ball) that she collapsed into a gasping heap in the grass. if only i could work as hard.

2004-04-24T15:56:00.000-07:00

i broke my brain.

today, "this, where get you from?"

last time i forgot how to get home from campus.

2004-04-23T10:29:00.000-07:00

I always forget how satisfying performing is.
Even if you're not ready, scripts falls apart or timing's off, it's an adventure.

-

peace of mind in pepperspray?

2004-04-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

happy earth day!

today and everyday i should:
recycle, use less water and energy, reduce plastic consumption, reuse containers, and reduce single serving stuff.

when i get a house i should:
STEP ON BAMBOO. Consider beautiful and sustainable bamboo wood flooring. Bamboo is the fastest growing plant on Earth, with some species growing a meter a day. It takes only three to five years to replenish bamboo, so an acre of bamboo can provide more flooring than an acre of trees. Cutting bamboo shoots does not destroy the roots and
fresh new sprouts grow in their place, according to the American Bamboo Society.

LET THE SUN SHINE IN. Consider going solar, even in small ways. Use solar energy to power your garden lights, fountain and even your computer. One of the easiest and least expensive ways to start saving energy is with lighting. Replace your most frequently used incandescent bulbs with compact fluorescent lights. According to some experts, if you substitute just a quarter the incandescent bulbs used in high-use areas, you can cut the amount of electricity you use on lighting by half -- saving money and our environment.

CATCH A BREEZE FROM THE TREES. By strategically planting deciduous shade trees, you can protect windows from summer sun to keep your home cool, but still allow the sun in during the winter to heat it. Join the National Arbor Day Foundation and plant the 10 free trees they will send you. Trees improve water quality, lower air conditioning costs by helping shade and cool, absorb carbon dioxide and emit oxygen -- and even boost your property values.

REMEMBER TO RECYCLE. Recycling glass, plastic and paper is convenient in most communities, with recycling bins often next to trash cans or conveniently located in store parking lots. "Recycling paper uses 60% less energy than manufacturing paper from virgin timber," according to the Environmental Protection Agency.

DON'T REACH FOR THE BLEACH. The 1990 Clean Air Act lists chlorine bleach as a hazardous air pollutant. Chlorine bleach is also the most common household cleaning product accidentally swallowed by children. Inhaled, it can cause respiratory problems including emphysema and bronchitis. To get a safer clean, switch to eco-friendly laundry products.

2004-04-21T23:58:00.000-07:00

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